Learning to surf

You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.  - Swami Satchitananda



That's the quote pushing me forward day to day lately. My horse life is wonderful.  Brilliant, really. And as it's what I tend to write about most on my blog of late, the rest of life seems to get lost in the jumble.  And currently, life outside my horses and my pup is not so stupendous.

I'm at a point in life where I just feel stuck. I'm doing my best to not be such a planner of my future like I used to be. I'm really trying to just go with the flow. And I'm better at doing that, truly. But I feel so stuck lately.

I'm beyond ready to get out of my hometown, get my own place and nest in it and decorate, explore a new place, make new friends, and *hopefully* explore new trails with the animals. But despite applying for 23 jobs since December within my agency, I'm still here. I haven't quit trying, but this whole "trying" thing is getting frustrating with every "eligible, but not referred" notice I receive. I'm being persistent and trying my damndest to be patient. I'm busying myself with a million other things in the mean time, but I'm really beginning to lose hope.

There are a series of other issues within my relationship (or lack thereof), my current job, and more or less this funk I seem to be stuck in that are really beginning to get to me. Its likely just "this time of year" with everyone going back to school. I miss college, but the next step for me with school would be to get my MS, and frankly, I'm just not ready to do that. If the perfect opportunity came up, sure, but I haven't seen any opportunities that blow my mind yet.

All of these things are all just part of life and the stresses we all experience at one time or another. They're like waves. Little and big stressors constantly coming that we can either flounder around in or learn to surf.

I'm learning to surf.

I'm learning to read the waves to pick the best ones and ignore the small ones. I'm learning to work over and through them. I'm doing my best to be more present in what I'm doing, appreciate what I have going for me right now, in this moment. I'm trying to make the best of what I have going for me. And I'm really hoping a really incredible wave is going to come my way soon...