Well, I got the official, “Oh, by the way, we don’t have guaranteed funding for you to keep you on for a year like you thought. So chances are good that you’ll be done at the end of September.” Brilliant.
Honestly, maybe it’s a good thing? I’d have more chances to get out and get more experience. But hot damn is the money good at this job! The work isn’t what I’d expected; but I’m learning SO much. Its definitely been a valuable experience. And I really don’t know what I’ll do if it ends when I wasn’t expecting it to… Save, save, save until I find out for certain, I guess.
Maybe I’ll go back to Morgantown and find a temporary job until Nat’l Ski Patrol training is over. I’m locked in to remaining in this area until I finish that. And I’m completely okay with that. Its something I really want to do – something I’ve always wanted to do. And I’m really excited about it. But it would be a lot easier for me to find a temporary job in Morgantown than it would be in Elkins. Probably not doing anything spectacular, but a job is a job. And if its something I could do and not be miserable doing that paid well – that would make me happy. And while its nice not having to pay for housing currently, I know I could probably find a cheap room somewhere at a friend’s in the mean time (4 or 5 months).
Bbbllaaaaahhh! I have so much confusion about my life and what I should do, what I could do, what I want to do. I hate not knowing. But opportunities present themselves if you keep your eyes open for them. I’m sure something will come along for me.
I don't know what I want. Its like I need to cross a pond on stepping stones to not risk falling in. Not all of the stones are visible; one is near, one is far, a couple in the middle I can see for certain. Others are just under the surface, visible but not certain - I could slip on them. Others yet are completely out of site. But I can see some of them. I have some idea of where I'm going and how I'm getting there. I definitely have goals to work toward. These things are important.
If I had unlimited resources what would I do?
- Endurance train and race horses; travel; learn. Do endurance around the world. Put it all together into one giant amazing race piece by piece, one place at a time.
Orion update: He is doing a lot better after only a day of treatment. The support in the thick bandaging is really helping him out and he's moving a lot better. The medication and DMSO are really helping combat the inflammation finally. Its dissipating a lot. He's moving happier already. Definitely on the mend and doing so well! Its so encouraging. Got him in some Ric Redden shoe/boots, too, to elevate his heels. The angle is taking pressure off the injury even more and he's a lot happier. The vet and I both feel that his recovery is going well and he's lined up to be a-okay as long as we take things slow!
