Baby bears, horses & a waterfall

Ah, the wonders of warm weather.  I can't believe how warm it's been the past few days.  I love it!  I've really missed it.  Being able to take Kenai out to potty in the morning and not seizing up at the chill weather is so nice.  I actually just stood around and didn't urge him on this morning - he will go on command pretty much, no dallying.  Warm breezes blowing - gotta love it.

Yesterday was full of baby bears and horses, and today I enjoyed some pretty water and watching a crazy person (Chris) huck himself off an 18ft. waterfall.

So now, I shall narrate my adventures with pictures - because I think anyone would agree that's more fun than actually having to read about stuff. 

My yesterday began with farm fresh eggs - yes, some are green.

Frosty leaves.  The temperature will fluctuate 30 - 50 degrees in one day at this time of year.

There were four cubs - a little atypical - but food was plentiful last year.

Wonderin' whats going on.  Such a cutie.

*Yawn* Such a rough life.  You can see three of the four in this shot.

Finally putting on some weight - his ribs and hips aren't so noticeable.

Kit lookin' good in my hat.

I love, love, love Tonka's face in this - I laughed for a long time when I realized I got this shot.

Why the long face?  Sorry, couldn't resist that joke. 

This is Orion's "Wazzup?" head toss.  You know, the way people on the streets do.

And this is his, "Hey, are we going anywhere or what?"  Such a pretty boy.
Can't wait for him to lose that damn winter coat.  I don't like my horses fluffy.

Wonder falls at 5.5ft - Chris huckin' himself off. (**This picture and the next three look much
crisper if you click and bring them up in the separate window.)

So much water. 

Splish splash.

Just hangin' out.  Lovin' that I can get pictures of me for once.  Yay for remotes.

Its the start of spring break for me and 28,000 other WVU students.  I'm pretty excited about all this warmer weather and all the activities to partake in outside.  I've missed the sun and warmth dearly.  It was so nice to get outside today and play around the river.  Kenai even got to test out his lifejacket - yes, he has an NRS doggie lifejacket - it works.  My car smells distinctly of wet dog and river funk now (river funk is this awful smell that accumulates around kayakers and their soaked gear - if you don't know what it smells like, consider yourself lucky).

Tonight promises rib-eye steaks, sauteed red potatoes & onions & garlic, macaroni salad, and good beer.  Ringin' in this break the right way.  Mmm, mmm, mmm.

Misery (& bears)

So rock bottom.  Again.  And this time I'm going to actually state why.

Cute right?  Together for 2 years and 8 months.  Perfect relationship.  Effortless.  Never had a fight. Arguments of minor significance, but nothing major ever.  And then, out of no where, he ends it.  He says he's "not invested" in it and its not fair to me.  And I know I've been stressed out with this whole graduate school application process and the thought of possibly leaving for school next year is scary.  But throughout all of that...I still love him and want to be with him.  Bottom line.  Period.

So now, its over.  And I'm a wreck.  I've lost 10 lbs. in a week; I can't bring myself to eat.  It nauseates me.  I drink some every now and then.  I cry all the time.  I'm trying to stay busy so I don't think about it.  I'm trying to be as positive and rational as I can.  I'm surrounding myself with wonderful people.  I LOVE my friends.  Let me say that again because I really want to make a point... I LOVE my friends.  They are amazing and are helping me through this.  But you know what?  Despite all of this...I want things to work out with us.  I want to be back together.  I am hurt beyond HURT right now...but I want to be back together sometime.  

This boy has been nothing but amazing to me while we were together.  Nothing but perfect. Textbook perfect.  That boy that everyone wishes they had.  That relationship every girl dreams about.  I had that.  It was amazing.  And I'm so confused and hurt as to why its gone...  And I want to fix it.  I want time to fix it; but right now I HATE TIME.  Oh life, why must you be so hard?

In an effort to feel better I have asked a bunch of my girl friends to send me picture mail throughout the day of little things that make them smile in an effort to cheer me.  Its been really amazing so far.  Mostly its pictures of their pets that are absolutely ridiculous.  I love them.  One of a cat spying over top a laptop made me laugh for a long time.  Just imagine sitting with your laptop and then these ears and eyes, no more, peek up at you from behind the screen... Yeah.  Hilarious.

TODAY, in an effort to stay busy and further my life for the future and for the better I went and did THIS.  

NO, they aren't dead.  Just tranquilized!  Had to process them, get measurements and stats.  My undergraduate thesis, yeah, right here.  Thats just how awesome my life has the potential to be...

So here's to trying to be positive, fuzzy bears, and amazing friends.  (And boyfriend and I becoming boyfriend & girlfriend again...or at least getting on the right path for that...)

Buh-bye!