Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Stepping stones

Well, I got the official, “Oh, by the way, we don’t have guaranteed funding for you to keep you on for a year like you thought.  So chances are good that you’ll be done at the end of September.”  Brilliant.
Honestly, maybe it’s a good thing?  I’d have more chances to get out and get more experience.  But hot damn is the money good at this job!  The work isn’t what I’d expected; but I’m learning SO much.  Its definitely been a valuable experience.  And I really don’t know what I’ll do if it ends when I wasn’t expecting it to…  Save, save, save until I find out for certain, I guess.
Maybe I’ll go back to Morgantown and find a temporary job until Nat’l Ski Patrol training is over.  I’m locked in to remaining in this area until I finish that.  And I’m completely okay with that.  Its something I really want to do – something I’ve always wanted to do.  And I’m really excited about it.  But it would be a lot easier for me to find a temporary job in Morgantown than it would be in Elkins.  Probably not doing anything spectacular, but a job is a job.  And if its something I could do and not be miserable doing that paid well – that would make me happy.  And while its nice not having to pay for housing currently, I know I could probably find a cheap room somewhere at a friend’s in the mean time (4 or 5 months).
Bbbllaaaaahhh!  I have so much confusion about my life and what I should do, what I could do, what I want to do.  I hate not knowing.  But opportunities present themselves if you keep your eyes open for them.  I’m sure something will come along for me.
 I don't know what I want.  Its like I need to cross a pond on stepping stones to not risk falling in.  Not all of the stones are visible; one is near, one is far, a couple in the middle I can see for certain.  Others are just under the surface, visible but not certain - I could slip on them.  Others yet are completely out of site.  But I can see some of them.  I have some idea of where I'm going and how I'm getting there.  I definitely have goals to work toward.  These things are important.
If I had unlimited resources what would I do?
-          Endurance train and race horses; travel; learn.  Do endurance around the world.  Put it all together into one giant amazing race piece by piece, one place at a time.
Orion update: He is doing a lot better after only a day of treatment.  The support in the thick bandaging is really helping him out and he's moving a lot better.  The medication and DMSO are really helping combat the inflammation finally.  Its dissipating a lot.  He's moving happier already.   Definitely on the mend and doing so well!  Its so encouraging.  Got him in some Ric Redden shoe/boots, too, to elevate his heels.  The angle is taking pressure off the injury even more and he's a lot happier.  The vet and I both feel that his recovery is going well and he's lined up to be a-okay as long as we take things slow!

1 comment:

  1. Glad Orion is doing better first of all! I bet that helps lift your spirits!
    That totally sucks about the job situation. :( I guess you could just blame it on the bad economy like everything else? It sounds like you have some other good plans though. I hope it all pans out for you!