Change. You either love it, hate it, or deal with it
because you have no other choice. And
honestly, I think we all experience each of those as we progress through life, perhaps starting
at one and ending up at the other.
I used
to hate change. I hated it because it
scared me and I would try to avoid it and prevent it at all costs. But, of course, change is inevitable when it
comes to many things. So, then I became
the kind of person who dealt with it because I had no other choice. And, for some things, I still take this
approach. But in the past year I have
begun to embrace it, love it, and take it as it comes – sometimes with
enthusiasm.
This
time last year I was in my almost-freak-out mode. The deadlines for graduate school
opportunities were approaching within a week and then I would find out whether
or not I was going or if I was going to have to come up with something
else. I was scared to death what would
happen if I didn’t go to grad school.
And then, obviously, I didn’t get in.
And with that turn of events I really began to grow into this person I’ve
wanted to be for awhile.
I’m
calmer. I recognize that no matter what
happens, I WILL be okay and things WILL work out. I’m incredibly lucky and I truly do have a lot going for me. I’m a hard worker and it shows. I’m okay with change now, I really sort of
like it. It stretches me and lets me grow
more. Actually, in the past 7 months I’ve
really thrown myself into experiences that have the potential to change me a
lot.
My job –
Its been a huge learning experience. Far
better than going to grad school. I’ve
realized this is the agency I want to pursue a career with; I don’t necessarily
want to do THIS job within it, but I like what the agency stands for and what
they do for wildlife. I’m doing my best
to pursue a permanent position – I’ve got my foot in the door, now I just need
to get the rest of me in there. Hopefully
the phenomenal contacts I’ve made will give me that push I need.
My ski
patrol & OEC training – It aggravates me more than I like quite often, but
I have learned SO much from it. It has been
extremely challenging at times. I’ve
become a better person for it. I’m so
much more prepared for the world I live in and the activities I choose to
partake in.
Applying
for jobs all over the country – I do tend to look for places with ample outdoors
activities when I’ve applied for these jobs (in NC, TN, CA, WA, AZ, ME, and
MN). I know I can find horseback riding
almost anywhere, but I try to find something else that would be fun to do in
the area as well. Willingness to uproot
myself and leave everything I’ve ever known is a strange feeling for me. But I’m comfortable with this because I know
I can always come back home.
All of
this, and I’m not even 25 yet. Not too
shabby.
Change
is something to be loved and embraced for what it does. Not all change seems good from the get-go
(and I’m likely to have a super down day immediately after having a super
positive one), but change helps us to grow.
Growing is good. You learn more
about yourself that way.
I’m
going to end with a story. The story
pertains to change, growing, and what you make yourself because of it. It is definitely something to think about.
One evening an old Cherokee told
his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, “My son, the battle is between two
wolves inside us all. One is Evil – It is
anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt,
resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good – It is joy, peace, love,
hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth,
compassion, and faith.”
The grandson though about it for
a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf wins?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The
one you feed.”